Sunday, June 14, 2009

Yeah Im insane

Ok so immmmmmmmmmm a mtt crazy beast now...My swings are a bit insane. Im not sure if I like this roller coaster but it seems to always keep going up. My friends try and hold me together before i completely lose it but im up against the beast called poker. Im losing thousands daily and then winning thousands in a day, u talk about an emotinal rollercoaster.

Artie Lange once said if you ever want to rock ur socks off bet double ur networth on a football game and get drunk as fuck on a sunday and see how it feels.

Im saying how about you take 1 week and be rounder63. People talk about swings and the craziness of poker can you imagine it with the volume that I put it in?

Lets just hope its building character, that one day you will see me in the likes of ivey or patrik antonious and i just lost 2.1 million and my facial expression didnt change because i have 150 million in the bank.

My friend michelle messaged me on facebook and say I am dizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzyyyyyyyyyyyy from this rollercoaster. Shes talking about my swings in poker, trust me im a dizzzy as shit too.

But I apreciate the support, the pick me up lines because when im feeling low its the only thing that holds me together and stopping me going to Pot Limit Omaha and flying with any four and donating a couple grand in 10 minutes.

Btw if u see me in OMaha please yell at me and bring reference to this request to me to tell me to get the hell out of the room.

Poker saved me from my gambling problem as funny as that sounds but when im not acting like a Pro I have a bad tendency to WANT TO GAMBLE..cus i still have a gambling heart.


If i could only master bankroll management, and tilt , Id be a pretty rich bastard but im sure that is to come just like everything else has.

Till next time

ROUNDER63 THE LEGEND

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Wow Seems Like I have arrived

What a crazy wild rolleroaster month i had for april. Hopefully this is more things to come. Well sorta

Its been an insane month. I started off by blowing through 14,000 dollars in a matter of two weeks and really was feeeling completely low.

I was having extreme doubt in myself and what I was doing. My bankroll was taking a big hit and my life roll was taking a hit as well, it was pretty devastating.

I kept tring and I kept trying and I kept trying and Kept trying, The bad beats woudlnt stop and just when i said there NO WAY AA loses to j8 sooted BOOOOOOOOOOOOM it loses.

I would sit in my bed and like a little school girl I would cry. My dog max would wonder what was wrong and he jumped next to me and start licking my face and tears. I was in disabelief of what i was seeing and all the hardwork and my dreams getting washed down the toilet of bad beats.

Id get really low but I kept trying and I kept trying and I keep getting doing terrible in the 45 sit goes.

The MTTs i would get far and only to get penis money but i could feeel I was on the brink of a big score.

In all my years of playing sports, going to school, working a real job, when i put all my effort I would always end up winning but you see this time i getting coudlnt myself out of the funk. I coudlnt take it to the next level, I coudltn simply try harder and get better results.

But thats because Poker is crazy and theres a reason why not everyone can be successful at it long term because it will chew you up spit you out over and over again if you let it.

I was starting to doubt my ability, My confidence was at an all time low and i was starting to believe all the doubters when my good friend Lappin reminded me that Im still a beast and gave me more then vote of confidence.

One thing when my brain is clear, when im happy in my real life, I always win. So I decided that I needed to take a break from poker in the morning, have a pleasant day do something that would make me happy, take something that would make me happy, and see someone that would make me happy. So did all three and got home and started a session.

I entered a 150 dollar mtt and some sit goes. I saw lappin sigh on and he immediatly scolded me for entering a 150 dollar mtt. "What are you doing entering 150 mtt!"

I knew he was right 100 percent but I felt I was in the right frame of mind and i was happy and I believed in my heart eventually I would hit something.

Played one of the best mtts of my life and got firt place

1. Rounder63 $23,189

Same day going on at the exact same time I had entered the turbo fiddy and I was so happy about the 23,000 I didnt even care about the turbo fiddy but my friend lappin and steve suarez reminded me that i was still playing for 5,000.

Focused up and got firt


1. Rounder63 $5088

Then 3 days later I hit another mtt for


1. Rounder63 $6374

Then 10 days later i hit another tourney for 7500


1. Rounder63 $7548....

Last day of april i was deep in the fifty-fifty first for that was 10,600 but My JJ lost to AJ and i got knocked out on the final table in 9th for 900 bucks. Kinda disapointed but u cant win them all...

So april was my record month

Rounder63 1,608 $21 $57 32% $33,000 Super Tilt FullTilt 4/1/2009 4/30/2009 .

My year is on pace for a record year.

Rounder63 6,020 $9 $50 17% $57,057 Tilt FullTilt 1/1/2009 5/2/2009

Wow was it satisfying to turn things around and i look forward to entering mtt after mtt in full beleif i can win a lot of money. I wanted to play some world series evens this month or next month but im going to prolly sit out of them save money and coach some football...Until the next blog......DONT EVER GIVE UP AND BELIEVE IN UR DREAMS!

Monday, March 9, 2009

So closeeeeeee yesterday!!....Keys to following a dream and executing it!

Seriously one of these damn times, me and my good friend lappin are going to hit a big score in a multi table tournament. Ive hit some 5-8 k scores which are very nice but im talking 20, 30 40 50 100k scores... Yesterday me and my good friend Lappin agreed to sell each other 25 percent of each others action in a the "Double Duece" on fulltilt. The double duece is sooooooooo crazyyyyyyy. 22 dollars with 10,600 people in it! Anyways Lappin played fanastic and was very nitty and weaved himself through 10,591 people and made it to the final table(Btw i think i was out in 10,590th place lol). Final table payouts where juicy. First was 34,000 2nd 20,000 3rd 12,000 4th 10,000 5th 7000 6th 4500 7th 3500 8th 3000 9th 2400...........So as you can see anything in the top 5 range is really nice.

Lappin picked up Pocket Kings 2nd best hand possible. Raised from early position, everyone folded and im like great what a freakin waste. The guy in the big blind was the only one left and he happen to be the most active aggressive beast at the table (kinda sounds like me but gangstar rap didnt make him crazy). He re-raised!!!!! I was excited saying to myself "reel him in lappin". I would of prefered if lappin just called to ensure he got the rest of the chips on the flop but lappin pushed all in and the guy instant called.

Sometimes in life something that you want so bad, you might not want at all. He called and flipped over AA and I felt like vomittiing all over my keyboard. 9th place for 2400 bucks, I got my 550 for doing nothing but watching my friend play. Was so disappointed. To the point that i havent event started playing today because I know I am tilty as #$#$$#.

I talked to Lappin Via skype last night and he sounded pretty upbeat, infact i think i was more tilted then him. He told me the feeling he had was exaclty the feeling I had when i was deep in the 750k guarntee to only have KK lose to 66 and all i can say is Im ok in a girly sad voice tilted as #$#$.

Anyways people im a true beleiver in the Walt Disney, slash George foreman saying, "If you can dream it you can do it" because im living it.

First it takes a dream. Outline exaclty what you want in your dream.Be as descriptive as you can about your dream. Once you vision your dream, you know exacltly what you want. Thats Like half the battle!!!!!!! Then start figuring out what it takes to achieve your dream. Start making small goals that lead into big goals. Before you know it ur small baby steps will turn into big steps and you will start witnessing your dream become a reality and something that can actually come true.

Thats what makes life so special, you can proove all doubters wrong, You can beat all odds, If you truely believe in your heart you can do something. If you have the discipline and dedication and fire inside to truely put ur whole heart into your dream. You can do it!.

Not Many people believed i could be a professional poker player. Not many people believed I could do it successfully. Not many people believed in me. But You know who believed in me. Myself!!!!! I knew I could do it, im going to admit, it wasnt easy, i fell on my face, needed help from my family and friends to not complete fall on the floor and not be able to get up but I never gave up!. All My outlines and visions are coming true and if these small baby steps keep turning into big steps, Ill be in a mansion chilling with a beautiful wife enjoying life around the whole world =).

Chase your dream dont let anyone tell you u cant do something and more importantly believe in yourself and special things can happen.

Dont everrrrr Doubt Nick Carrillo because He will always proove you wrong.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

First Losing Month in 17 months Blehhhhhhh

OK....SO February i decided to be a gambler and not a Poker player. I was in the transisition of moving out and busy with real life stuff so I wasnt able to put in my normal sessions. So I thought it would be brilliant to play 160 dollar super turbos 220 9 people sit go and fulltilt decided to have me run like pure shit......So I went on a -12k downswing in like 5-6 days.. It was very disgusting and now thinking about it i took it alot better then I thought i was going to. Not smart but the last 15 days im on a 11k profit almost back to where i was at my high point. I got my confidence back and im running alot bettter so hopefully things maintain the same way. Its crazy how one day you can think your the best poker player in the world and the following day you think you are the worst. Poker is like life as it will humble you very quickly.

So Ive moved out on my own, got my dog back, living back in my home town and I have a big mission of 6 months to make a shitload of money and go from there. I will be playing some world series event, so im looking forward to that and hopefully i hit something nice and big.

Again i feel like im playing at my all time best. I am just seeing things so clearly and outplaying my opponents so severly its sick.

Im not too happy that Pimpin Donks has decided to become a fulltime fulltilt player. He can produce the same amount of games as I do and unlike some of the other good online pros out there he dont put up with my shit and isnt scared to put chips in the pot with me so seem to be bashing heads lately. I did get him heads up in a 75 the other day with a 2 to 1 chip disadvantage and cleverly switched gears on him (played like hellmuth 1v1). So hopefully he disappears or my Roi will suffer a little bit.

One of my fans made some funny raps about me check it out

waayy (Observer): can anyone donate sosme cash
to a broke rapper, ill rap for it
Rounder63: waayy i get first ill ship
Dealer: Ted Collins has 15 seconds left to act
Rounder63: but u have to cheer
Rounder63: like a school girl
Dealer: Rounder63 wins the pot (7,800)
Dealer: Hand #10710767486
Bareena King (Observer): lmao
Rounder63: i want cheerleading songs
Dealer: Ted Collins has 15 seconds left to act
Feistyangel2 (Observer): G A Y
Rounder63: like pump pump pump it up bump that
rounder63 music upppppppp
Dealer: Ted Collins has 15 seconds left to act
Bareena King (Observer): lmao
WayBizzle (Observer): hey we go rounder here we
go hoot hoot
Rounder63: holy
Dealer: Ted Collins has 15 seconds left to act
Rounder63: 5 dollars to every cheerleader
Rounder63: if i get first
WayBizzle (Observer): yay
Dealer: Ted Collins has 15 seconds left to act
Rounder63: 25 if ur super loaded
Feistyangel2 (Observer): G A Y
Dealer: AwizArd76 shows two pair, Aces and Fives
Dealer: Ted Collins shows two pair, Aces and Kings
Dealer: Ted Collins wins the pot (11,400) with two
pair, Aces and Kings
Dealer: Hand #10710795223
WayBizzle (Observer): wow rounder your like a
modern day jesus
Rounder63: yes my son
Dealer: AwizArd76 has 15 seconds left to act
Dealer: AwizArd76 has 15 seconds left to act
Dealer: Rounder63 has 15 seconds left to act
Dealer: Rounder63 has requested TIME
WayBizzle (Observer): awiz quit playin like a
retard, this nigga is so soft hes playin poker in a
leotard.. my man rounder is a general, like a point
guard... takin him out of this tournemant will just be
to hard
Dealer: AwizArd76 wins the pot (11,400)
Dealer: Hand #10710820154
Rounder63: holyy
Feistyangel2 (Observer): lol gotta admit thats nice
Dealer: ferdilicious has 15 seconds left to act
WayBizzle (Observer): yo yo rounder is bout to put
u niggas on ice like the maple leafs, thats a
hockey team.. no he aint a hockey team.. hes a
champion, wheres the @@$%in rockey theme???

Monday, February 2, 2009

Tommorrow Is live at Commerce

So tommorrow Im playing a 545 buy in at commerce casino tommorrow at 1pm. Its a 6 handed tournament which i seem to be really good at. So chips are going to be flying around and hopefully Nicholas Carrillo can be rounder63 because rounder63 truely is my altar ego. You see Nicholas Carrillo is a nice honest caring man. Rounder63 is a ruthless scum bag that everyone hates and he destroys everyone. I am glad that when i played live last time that some of my online insticts came into play. I reshipped it with q8 sooted all in on a resteal with about 40 people to go and it worked. That being said, I could feel my heart pounding pretty hard where as online, i am a robot and had no emotions or feeling and could care less if i get called because im rounder63 and i run like a greek god.

I plan on being hyper aggressive and take control of the table. Whoever trys to rebeast me is going to get re-re-r-er-e-re-r-er-e-r-er-e-re beasted back. I will come back and give a report on how it goes when i get back. Hopefullly its at 4am and im heading to the final table the next day or I shipped it.

Last week I went to Texas for a week and only played 170 games all week. I usually play anywhere from 40-120 a day. So only playing 170 is prettty low. That being said i won 4,000 and my roi was 60.

I also played a "fun" 5 dollar 30 person live sit go. It was a very funny experience. People where so bad. The guy to my left who i found later is a millionaire was the worst player in poker history. He was limp calling 10 2 offsuit,8 4 offusit, etc etc etc. There was another lady in particular who i tried bluffing and she obvioulsy had 0 fold button and I donked off my chips when she called her whole touranment with a gutshot and i had nothing.

I ended up getting 5 handed and i took control and the chip lead and thought for sure i was going to win. But I lost a big race on the river and then got cooled when kj ran into ak sb vs bb when she had less then 10 bb. Ran out of steam and finished in 5th but it was a good experience.

Texas is definetaly a differnet world. People are more friendly and texas bbq is legendary. I was able to treat my friend and his girlfriend to this brazlian steakhouse and I must say it was the best food I have ever had in my life. I am still dreaming of the meal and want to go back everyday.

This Year ive made it a goal to travel the whole world. Hopefully im able to do so. Im going to go ireland very soon to visit lappin. Going to go New york to visit dinkydoofus. Those are two desinations that already planned just the details are not finalized.

Lets hope I ship it tommorrow

Saturday, January 31, 2009

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Reflection of what has happen and what is to come

Wow........Ok so my poker career seems to be taking offf......Im consistently being more consistent and thats the key to winning poker.....I really think there are several leaks that i have fixed in my game and in my personal life to make myself a better player. 1st was my health, I was extremely overweight and I have lost 70 pounds and feel like a champ. This has made me feel better when I have been playing. Another thing is my personal life is much better, I am not upset or tilty therefore I am able to be more focused on the tables. I had a very bad streak of tilt in me, It still exist but its far lesss severe as I have a good amount of money in the bank and losing money bothers me less.

I have had a pretty sick three month stretch but I think these will be my normal months to come.


Rounder63 4,702$7.76 $41 18% $36,506
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FullTilt
11/1/2008 1/24/2009.

I am sick, Nobody can put in the amount of time, and amount of games simentously that I can. Ive read other Pro bloggers that claim they put they put sick volume but I laugh because I put 2x thier supposed sick volume. I am simply a machine.

Yes Im confident and I can be arrogant at the table but its my part of my alias rounder63. I act like a complete jerk and asshole because i want everyone coming after me. I get some of the most retarded call but its all a part of my game. I play like a beast no fear, Im not like the other profitable players on fulltilt. They are scared to put a chip in the pot. Im not scared to lose, Im not scared to donk and thats what makes me dangerous.

I am the so called luckiest player on the face of the planet. That I run like extreme God and Im only good because i run like a champ. Ok so 34,000 tournaments online and I only feast because Im a luckbox. Thats makes alot of mathmatically sense. But its all good rounder63 knows the truth.

We had our little 45 person challenge last month and I ended up 4th, If we did the same challenge this month nobody could hold my jockeystrap.

Rounder63 855 $17.33 $41 34% $14,819 - FullTilt 1/1/2009 1/24/2009 E45-45

I am taking a chance in some LA Poker classic events. I played the first event had 18k before u could blink to only donk all my chips off and then get coolered. The 2nd event yesterday was 535 buy in first place prize was 70,000. There where 480 entertants, Again i start off like gangbusters like i do every tournament. I had 20k before u could blink was top 5 in chips in the whole tournament then got switched tables and thats when everything changed. The table was much different and the donks where loose and aggressive and it made hard to play my game. A Player in particlar kept bad beating me in every pot it was making me sick. I stayed focused and made it deep. Men the Master was at my table and I didnt have much respect for his game until i saw him play. He knows what he was doing. He was floating, He was re-raising light, He was bluffing his ass off and I knew everytime he was doing so and just laughing inside. One particlar hand I laughed my ass off because he called 80 percent of his chips on a 109510A BOARD WITH 97 and i coudlnt stop laughing... I asked him hey that was a gangtar call...he replys......NO that was CORONA CALLLLLLLLLLL.. and he shows me his beer it was so freaking funnny.......Then worth the price of admission......we get down to 46 players and he is on my button. He raises again obviously on the button on bubble spot (top 45 get paid). Before I look at my hand he says to me and looks to me directly. "You go all in I guantee call you" I look down i see two jacks and say " Ok thats good Im all in" He instant calls and I show JJ and he is dejected and flips over 1010.......I held somehow and continued.....He then got knocked out an orbit later when his ak ran into qq and he didnt hit.

For me we get down to 3 tables, im shortstack. Girl open shoves 55 for 24 bb i have about 15 bb i look down i see AA and im excited because if i win this pot i have about 100k and im above chip avg with about 26 people to go for a great chance to make a run at 70k but OBVIOULSY she hits her 5 ball and im sent to the rail. I took the beat pretty good said nice hand and wasnt upset. Then I went to get paid and everything sunked in. That the tournament was over and I didnt have 15 other tables to go that i could worry about. So I got upset and really felt like going to pot limit omaha and just flying all in with whatever but i remained calm and went home and had a tilty night of sleep. LIVE POKER IS RIGGED.....

So i plan on playing 5 other events hopefully I ship something good.

Poker is not easy, Its not for the weak minded. Or is it for the people that control thier emotions Its also not easily done without constant support from your friends. We all forget really how the game works. Its the stupidest game on the face of the planet yet we play it every single day. Want to know why that is so?......Because Poker is exaclty like life. Some poker days are great. Some Poker days are terrible. We expect to win with AA almost to the point we think we are guarnteed to win with AA but we are quickly remind that AA doesnt guarntee you anything. Same goes with life, nothing is guarnteed, things u expect to happen dont always happen. Things happen that are not fair but we wake up everyday live our lifes and try our best.

Thats the beauty of life and the beauty of poker. If you play it right and Play your cards right, Long term there is no way you can lose and thats what keeps us coming back. The thought of not knowing what exaclty is going to happen, is sickly exciting. As Human beings we do not like easy things, we like to be challenged because if it was easy then it woudlnt be any fun.


Important of Support as a Poker player

I thank my support group of online poker players. Lappin always keeps me focused at the longterm picture and reminds me that when im down to go look at my sharkscope. Stinkybudz reminds me alot of myself, always complaining about the beats and always threatining to quit but just keeps going to war over and over and over again. Thats what you got to do, Keep getting knocked down but keep getting back up with ur sword and shield and ready for war. It helps to get support from people from the rail and My number one fan is feistyangel2. Just simple comments alone of support can help me refocus on a tournament and come back and feast and im very thankful for that.

When I completely lose my mind, i turn to my good friend Dave Castle, without him Im not sure if the glue would of stayed together.

Bottom line is Poker is not easy and You most definetaly need a support group without one you can find yourself lonely and lost.