So closeeeeeee yesterday!!....Keys to following a dream and executing it!

Seriously one of these damn times, me and my good friend lappin are going to hit a big score in a multi table tournament. Ive hit some 5-8 k scores which are very nice but im talking 20, 30 40 50 100k scores... Yesterday me and my good friend Lappin agreed to sell each other 25 percent of each others action in a the "Double Duece" on fulltilt. The double duece is sooooooooo crazyyyyyyy. 22 dollars with 10,600 people in it! Anyways Lappin played fanastic and was very nitty and weaved himself through 10,591 people and made it to the final table(Btw i think i was out in 10,590th place lol). Final table payouts where juicy. First was 34,000 2nd 20,000 3rd 12,000 4th 10,000 5th 7000 6th 4500 7th 3500 8th 3000 9th 2400...........So as you can see anything in the top 5 range is really nice.

Lappin picked up Pocket Kings 2nd best hand possible. Raised from early position, everyone folded and im like great what a freakin waste. The guy in the big blind was the only one left and he happen to be the most active aggressive beast at the table (kinda sounds like me but gangstar rap didnt make him crazy). He re-raised!!!!! I was excited saying to myself "reel him in lappin". I would of prefered if lappin just called to ensure he got the rest of the chips on the flop but lappin pushed all in and the guy instant called.

Sometimes in life something that you want so bad, you might not want at all. He called and flipped over AA and I felt like vomittiing all over my keyboard. 9th place for 2400 bucks, I got my 550 for doing nothing but watching my friend play. Was so disappointed. To the point that i havent event started playing today because I know I am tilty as #$#$$#.

I talked to Lappin Via skype last night and he sounded pretty upbeat, infact i think i was more tilted then him. He told me the feeling he had was exaclty the feeling I had when i was deep in the 750k guarntee to only have KK lose to 66 and all i can say is Im ok in a girly sad voice tilted as #$#$.

Anyways people im a true beleiver in the Walt Disney, slash George foreman saying, "If you can dream it you can do it" because im living it.

First it takes a dream. Outline exaclty what you want in your dream.Be as descriptive as you can about your dream. Once you vision your dream, you know exacltly what you want. Thats Like half the battle!!!!!!! Then start figuring out what it takes to achieve your dream. Start making small goals that lead into big goals. Before you know it ur small baby steps will turn into big steps and you will start witnessing your dream become a reality and something that can actually come true.

Thats what makes life so special, you can proove all doubters wrong, You can beat all odds, If you truely believe in your heart you can do something. If you have the discipline and dedication and fire inside to truely put ur whole heart into your dream. You can do it!.

Not Many people believed i could be a professional poker player. Not many people believed I could do it successfully. Not many people believed in me. But You know who believed in me. Myself!!!!! I knew I could do it, im going to admit, it wasnt easy, i fell on my face, needed help from my family and friends to not complete fall on the floor and not be able to get up but I never gave up!. All My outlines and visions are coming true and if these small baby steps keep turning into big steps, Ill be in a mansion chilling with a beautiful wife enjoying life around the whole world =).

Chase your dream dont let anyone tell you u cant do something and more importantly believe in yourself and special things can happen.

Dont everrrrr Doubt Nick Carrillo because He will always proove you wrong.

First Losing Month in 17 months Blehhhhhhh

OK....SO February i decided to be a gambler and not a Poker player. I was in the transisition of moving out and busy with real life stuff so I wasnt able to put in my normal sessions. So I thought it would be brilliant to play 160 dollar super turbos 220 9 people sit go and fulltilt decided to have me run like pure shit......So I went on a -12k downswing in like 5-6 days.. It was very disgusting and now thinking about it i took it alot better then I thought i was going to. Not smart but the last 15 days im on a 11k profit almost back to where i was at my high point. I got my confidence back and im running alot bettter so hopefully things maintain the same way. Its crazy how one day you can think your the best poker player in the world and the following day you think you are the worst. Poker is like life as it will humble you very quickly.

So Ive moved out on my own, got my dog back, living back in my home town and I have a big mission of 6 months to make a shitload of money and go from there. I will be playing some world series event, so im looking forward to that and hopefully i hit something nice and big.

Again i feel like im playing at my all time best. I am just seeing things so clearly and outplaying my opponents so severly its sick.

Im not too happy that Pimpin Donks has decided to become a fulltime fulltilt player. He can produce the same amount of games as I do and unlike some of the other good online pros out there he dont put up with my shit and isnt scared to put chips in the pot with me so seem to be bashing heads lately. I did get him heads up in a 75 the other day with a 2 to 1 chip disadvantage and cleverly switched gears on him (played like hellmuth 1v1). So hopefully he disappears or my Roi will suffer a little bit.

One of my fans made some funny raps about me check it out

waayy (Observer): can anyone donate sosme cash
to a broke rapper, ill rap for it
Rounder63: waayy i get first ill ship
Dealer: Ted Collins has 15 seconds left to act
Rounder63: but u have to cheer
Rounder63: like a school girl
Dealer: Rounder63 wins the pot (7,800)
Dealer: Hand #10710767486
Bareena King (Observer): lmao
Rounder63: i want cheerleading songs
Dealer: Ted Collins has 15 seconds left to act
Feistyangel2 (Observer): G A Y
Rounder63: like pump pump pump it up bump that
rounder63 music upppppppp
Dealer: Ted Collins has 15 seconds left to act
Bareena King (Observer): lmao
WayBizzle (Observer): hey we go rounder here we
go hoot hoot
Rounder63: holy
Dealer: Ted Collins has 15 seconds left to act
Rounder63: 5 dollars to every cheerleader
Rounder63: if i get first
WayBizzle (Observer): yay
Dealer: Ted Collins has 15 seconds left to act
Rounder63: 25 if ur super loaded
Feistyangel2 (Observer): G A Y
Dealer: AwizArd76 shows two pair, Aces and Fives
Dealer: Ted Collins shows two pair, Aces and Kings
Dealer: Ted Collins wins the pot (11,400) with two
pair, Aces and Kings
Dealer: Hand #10710795223
WayBizzle (Observer): wow rounder your like a
modern day jesus
Rounder63: yes my son
Dealer: AwizArd76 has 15 seconds left to act
Dealer: AwizArd76 has 15 seconds left to act
Dealer: Rounder63 has 15 seconds left to act
Dealer: Rounder63 has requested TIME
WayBizzle (Observer): awiz quit playin like a
retard, this nigga is so soft hes playin poker in a
leotard.. my man rounder is a general, like a point
guard... takin him out of this tournemant will just be
to hard
Dealer: AwizArd76 wins the pot (11,400)
Dealer: Hand #10710820154
Rounder63: holyy
Feistyangel2 (Observer): lol gotta admit thats nice
Dealer: ferdilicious has 15 seconds left to act
WayBizzle (Observer): yo yo rounder is bout to put
u niggas on ice like the maple leafs, thats a
hockey team.. no he aint a hockey team.. hes a
champion, wheres the @@$%in rockey theme???