Wow Seems Like I have arrived

What a crazy wild rolleroaster month i had for april. Hopefully this is more things to come. Well sorta

Its been an insane month. I started off by blowing through 14,000 dollars in a matter of two weeks and really was feeeling completely low.

I was having extreme doubt in myself and what I was doing. My bankroll was taking a big hit and my life roll was taking a hit as well, it was pretty devastating.

I kept tring and I kept trying and I kept trying and Kept trying, The bad beats woudlnt stop and just when i said there NO WAY AA loses to j8 sooted BOOOOOOOOOOOOM it loses.

I would sit in my bed and like a little school girl I would cry. My dog max would wonder what was wrong and he jumped next to me and start licking my face and tears. I was in disabelief of what i was seeing and all the hardwork and my dreams getting washed down the toilet of bad beats.

Id get really low but I kept trying and I kept trying and I keep getting doing terrible in the 45 sit goes.

The MTTs i would get far and only to get penis money but i could feeel I was on the brink of a big score.

In all my years of playing sports, going to school, working a real job, when i put all my effort I would always end up winning but you see this time i getting coudlnt myself out of the funk. I coudlnt take it to the next level, I coudltn simply try harder and get better results.

But thats because Poker is crazy and theres a reason why not everyone can be successful at it long term because it will chew you up spit you out over and over again if you let it.

I was starting to doubt my ability, My confidence was at an all time low and i was starting to believe all the doubters when my good friend Lappin reminded me that Im still a beast and gave me more then vote of confidence.

One thing when my brain is clear, when im happy in my real life, I always win. So I decided that I needed to take a break from poker in the morning, have a pleasant day do something that would make me happy, take something that would make me happy, and see someone that would make me happy. So did all three and got home and started a session.

I entered a 150 dollar mtt and some sit goes. I saw lappin sigh on and he immediatly scolded me for entering a 150 dollar mtt. "What are you doing entering 150 mtt!"

I knew he was right 100 percent but I felt I was in the right frame of mind and i was happy and I believed in my heart eventually I would hit something.

Played one of the best mtts of my life and got firt place

1. Rounder63 $23,189

Same day going on at the exact same time I had entered the turbo fiddy and I was so happy about the 23,000 I didnt even care about the turbo fiddy but my friend lappin and steve suarez reminded me that i was still playing for 5,000.

Focused up and got firt


1. Rounder63 $5088

Then 3 days later I hit another mtt for


1. Rounder63 $6374

Then 10 days later i hit another tourney for 7500


1. Rounder63 $7548....

Last day of april i was deep in the fifty-fifty first for that was 10,600 but My JJ lost to AJ and i got knocked out on the final table in 9th for 900 bucks. Kinda disapointed but u cant win them all...

So april was my record month

Rounder63 1,608 $21 $57 32% $33,000 Super Tilt FullTilt 4/1/2009 4/30/2009 .

My year is on pace for a record year.

Rounder63 6,020 $9 $50 17% $57,057 Tilt FullTilt 1/1/2009 5/2/2009

Wow was it satisfying to turn things around and i look forward to entering mtt after mtt in full beleif i can win a lot of money. I wanted to play some world series evens this month or next month but im going to prolly sit out of them save money and coach some football...Until the next blog......DONT EVER GIVE UP AND BELIEVE IN UR DREAMS!